Hello my friend! I have had a bizarre day. It was a good day, I felt incredible and confident throughout the entire day. I really enjoyed myself and I could actually feel the people around me feeding off my positive energy. It was refreshing. I have had a number of good days of late, though this was by far the most positive of them all.
I seem to think that it started in the early morning yesterday. I was laying awake in my rack. You know that I was thinking of what I have lost and how to regain that lost love. In the midst of that it began to rain. The soft sound of a light rain on the outside of the tent was calming, it did remind me of passed days of camping with my family. This had me thinking of how I had seen my future in the days gone by and how I am building a new picture of that future now. I have a plan I am working on, it is coming together on many different levels, it does have holes that need to be filled but all things come in time.
I have been spending quite a bit of time concerning my spiritual mind and how it plays a role in my future. "My future", that is what I called it, but in all the world is this to be just my future, how am I connected to others and would that become "Our future". The possibilities are interesting. I had a very interesting discussion last night with a man from South India, he is searching for enlightenment through his Hindi beliefs. We talked about the soul and how it ties to our physical and emotional self. It was a very good discussion, we tended to agree on many beliefs even though we understood them in different ways. The discussion was a very open exchange of ideas and contemplation of the possibilities of each others beliefs. It was an uplifting discussion. Sudhaka is a very positive and caring person, he was as fascinated with my views and beliefs as I was of his, I did enjoy the exchange of ideas and the open talk without judgement.
In all this, the day was very good and I understood that My future can be filled with these good days. I very much have an influence (not control) on how my future will be filled. I know that I will be happy, I know that my health will be sound for some time to come, I know that my mind is hungry and I will find all that it desires and I know that I will love again! The knowing and accepting have lifted so many burdens from me, just knowing that makes all other things even more possible. Yes my future is full of Hope, but with a guided hand that hope will become fulfillment and that will lead to a good and happy life. I have finally come to a point in my life that I am looking forward to what a future has in store for me. And once more the possibilities have me sitting here in tears, it is a crazy mixed up new world I have stepped into and I love it more then I have in a very long time.
I hope that this sharing helps anyone, I know it does me, even with the prospect that this will never be seen. I have fundamentally changed, not so much physically, but in the way I see myself and how I believe I should be with others. I want to love again, I want to be loved again, I need these things as much as I need air to breath. I do have a vision on how that could be but I have no control over those things, I will be what I can and look for a path that will bring me to my future and my peace of mind.
Be safe and happy,
Pirate03
I seem to think that it started in the early morning yesterday. I was laying awake in my rack. You know that I was thinking of what I have lost and how to regain that lost love. In the midst of that it began to rain. The soft sound of a light rain on the outside of the tent was calming, it did remind me of passed days of camping with my family. This had me thinking of how I had seen my future in the days gone by and how I am building a new picture of that future now. I have a plan I am working on, it is coming together on many different levels, it does have holes that need to be filled but all things come in time.
I have been spending quite a bit of time concerning my spiritual mind and how it plays a role in my future. "My future", that is what I called it, but in all the world is this to be just my future, how am I connected to others and would that become "Our future". The possibilities are interesting. I had a very interesting discussion last night with a man from South India, he is searching for enlightenment through his Hindi beliefs. We talked about the soul and how it ties to our physical and emotional self. It was a very good discussion, we tended to agree on many beliefs even though we understood them in different ways. The discussion was a very open exchange of ideas and contemplation of the possibilities of each others beliefs. It was an uplifting discussion. Sudhaka is a very positive and caring person, he was as fascinated with my views and beliefs as I was of his, I did enjoy the exchange of ideas and the open talk without judgement.
In all this, the day was very good and I understood that My future can be filled with these good days. I very much have an influence (not control) on how my future will be filled. I know that I will be happy, I know that my health will be sound for some time to come, I know that my mind is hungry and I will find all that it desires and I know that I will love again! The knowing and accepting have lifted so many burdens from me, just knowing that makes all other things even more possible. Yes my future is full of Hope, but with a guided hand that hope will become fulfillment and that will lead to a good and happy life. I have finally come to a point in my life that I am looking forward to what a future has in store for me. And once more the possibilities have me sitting here in tears, it is a crazy mixed up new world I have stepped into and I love it more then I have in a very long time.
I hope that this sharing helps anyone, I know it does me, even with the prospect that this will never be seen. I have fundamentally changed, not so much physically, but in the way I see myself and how I believe I should be with others. I want to love again, I want to be loved again, I need these things as much as I need air to breath. I do have a vision on how that could be but I have no control over those things, I will be what I can and look for a path that will bring me to my future and my peace of mind.
Be safe and happy,
Pirate03
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