It is kind of sad and funny how things catch up with me. Balance is paramount to my recovery, and sometimes I feel more like I am on a roller coaster chasing the balance I seek. I am either completely wrapped up in work and forgetting to live or I am focused just on entertainment. It ends up being one extreme to the next and that instability brings me back to depression. I have pretty much been having a pity party for myself all week. It's depressing to see myself doing this and knowing I control it.
Well I am using this weekend to calm the waters and get some balance as well as a decent perspective. I am hopping a train today and spending the next two and half days sight seeing, reading and reflecting. I need my focus back, right now I feel like I am sinking and I can see the shore but I am not kicking in the right direction.
It is lonely in here and I really do want a good relationship one day, but I still don't think I would be a good partner as I am. I do have a couple good friends that I can talk to but no one to really open up to. I do have an appointment to meet a new shrink, lol, he/she can be my new friend or confidant.
Be safe and happy,
Pirate03
Well I am using this weekend to calm the waters and get some balance as well as a decent perspective. I am hopping a train today and spending the next two and half days sight seeing, reading and reflecting. I need my focus back, right now I feel like I am sinking and I can see the shore but I am not kicking in the right direction.
It is lonely in here and I really do want a good relationship one day, but I still don't think I would be a good partner as I am. I do have a couple good friends that I can talk to but no one to really open up to. I do have an appointment to meet a new shrink, lol, he/she can be my new friend or confidant.
Be safe and happy,
Pirate03
